It never goes away. The hurt that is felt by all of us when people we love so much are taken and this huge void in our life remains. Here today and gone sometimes the same day and I guess you are supposed to "suck it up" and go on as if nothing happened as some will tell you. The loss is always devastating, and it forever changes everything about us. The visits, the phone calls, are gone. A mere memory. Did I dream all of this past? If I'm lucky I will remember all of the good times and the bad are not important.
What is important is to remember that who we are today is a direct link to all we have come in contact with our lives. They have given us perspectives, good and bad, and guided us on this path we call life.
God Bless Ma and Pa Haswell, Ma and Pa Sloan, brothers and sisters, aunts and uncles and cousins and friends and of course last but certainly not least all of our wonderful and beautiful animals that have graced our path. We miss you all so much but thank you all for being in our lives. WE LOVE YOU ALL !!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Saturday, March 1, 2008
A Very Good Day
It's my first Saturday after starting a new job this week and it feels good. A little stiff and sore from actually doing physical labor and it feels good. So, it's a very good day.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Sittin' an thinkin'
As I sit here in the quiet and contemplate what the universe has brought to bear, I think of that scared little kid on Nealy Ridge, VA. He was almost afraid of his own shadow but never had a problem exploring the beautiful expanse of true wilderness he called home. Some would never have followed where the day would take this five year old( one of earliest memories) places where you could find copperhead snakes and bobcats and many other assorted creatures, but also some of the coolest caves anywhere. It was nothing for him to take off, sometimes with his trusty J. C. Higgins bike early in the morning and not come home until after dark, knowing full well it would mean a beating for not following rules on when to come back. I know this is where the love of nature was started.
This brings me to today.
I've been reading a book about Warren Zevon, whose music I love. All of the things this man went through, mostly his doing and most not good for him or who he was close to. But he would talk about some of his contemporaries and how successful monetarily they were and that he was not, made me think of my own situation.
That I have been out of work for four months makes me feel strange. I sometimes feel like a huge burden to my wife who is working, but I know I've worked very hard for over the last thirty plus years so I know that this is tempoary.
To some they would not see my success. But as I sit here typing at our computer and enjoying our very comfortable home on almost two acres on this cold day in February looking at our two cars in the driveway, I know I'm one of the richest men in the world.
I am in LOVE with my wife and we have been together for over twenty two years and there are no material positions in the world that will ever top that.
No matter what happens for the rest of my life I have this to cherish. For someone who saw his parents not speak to each other for months, I truly have the love of the woman I will spend the rest of my life with and it makes me the richest man in the world.
Not bad for a scared little kid from Nealy Ridge, VA.
This brings me to today.
I've been reading a book about Warren Zevon, whose music I love. All of the things this man went through, mostly his doing and most not good for him or who he was close to. But he would talk about some of his contemporaries and how successful monetarily they were and that he was not, made me think of my own situation.
That I have been out of work for four months makes me feel strange. I sometimes feel like a huge burden to my wife who is working, but I know I've worked very hard for over the last thirty plus years so I know that this is tempoary.
To some they would not see my success. But as I sit here typing at our computer and enjoying our very comfortable home on almost two acres on this cold day in February looking at our two cars in the driveway, I know I'm one of the richest men in the world.
I am in LOVE with my wife and we have been together for over twenty two years and there are no material positions in the world that will ever top that.
No matter what happens for the rest of my life I have this to cherish. For someone who saw his parents not speak to each other for months, I truly have the love of the woman I will spend the rest of my life with and it makes me the richest man in the world.
Not bad for a scared little kid from Nealy Ridge, VA.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
A snowy day.
Decided it might be a good idea to unbury my wife's car from the pile of snow that sat on it, scrape the ice off the glass ( broke a scraper cleaning off rear window ). It had not been started or moved for a while. When I was ready to leave, the car had other ideas. It's a rear wheel drive car and it does not do well in snow or ice. All I could do was spin my tires for what seemed like an eternity. My awesome neighbor lent a hand and eventually we were able to move it the few inches it took to get it off of the ice. Thank you Geneva for all your help. It was also good to see her pit bull ( Pink ) again.
Now after taking care of a few chores earlier, Tuffy the cat and I are inside watching the snow fall outside waiting for my wonderful wife to come home from work, have a nice dinner and enjoy the evening.
And all is swell!!
Now after taking care of a few chores earlier, Tuffy the cat and I are inside watching the snow fall outside waiting for my wonderful wife to come home from work, have a nice dinner and enjoy the evening.
And all is swell!!
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